Well, June is almost over and it has been a wonderfully interesting month full of new happenings, old happenings, new feelings forming, and old feelings fading. I’m probably going to ramble on in this, so I apologize and if you don’t read it all, that is okay. All I ask of you that do not read it, is like and share my Facebook page, or follow my Twitter, so more people can come find my content.
I like to imagine I am an insightful person, that I have answers for a lot of questions that are asked of me, that my opinions should matter to the world at large; This is probably only slightly true, and there are many, many more people who are better at all this than I am. I am atheist, I am not anti-religion. I am not a feminist, I am not an anti-feminist. I am pro-life, I am pro adoption, I am all for helping out others who are in need if I can.
Out of all the things I am, there is one that I have not yet experienced, and had grown content in knowing I would never be. All that changed a few months ago, and I found out just over a month ago. This knowledge has thrown my world view, future outlook for my life, my plans and my ambitions out the window. That all changed when I received a text saying, “We need to talk.”
A phrase a lot of men have heard, a lot of men dread hearing, and a lot of men have been destroyed by. It was followed by a picture, and the phrase, “I’m pregnant for you.” This threw me for a loop, and turned my world upside down.
I’m going to be a father.
Days like that make life worth living, makes life scary as hell, and will quickly make you reevaluate your life. I’ve spent the last month doing that, while trying to figure out how to tell my best friend that I was going to have a kid. I think that scared me more than anything, but thankfully my best friend is probably one of the greatest, most sincere, fantastic women that I know, or ever have known. I love her tremendously for that. I wont get into the details of that conversation, simply because there’s another part that happened that I am not ready to talk about; that also covers the new feelings forming, and old feelings fading.
So June has been spent pondering baby names, pondering what future goals I have for myself, trying to advance myself at work, looking for a new place to live, saving money, and finding my future.
I’m going to post regular updates about the whole baby thing, the search for a new abode, my work life, and the cryptic but important “finding my future” as it unfolds. I’m probably going to have a category just for my child, and post everything there.
Best luck in life and till next time! Good Travels!